So, the week went by in a jiff, and it's already back to school. AP and my SAT's are coming up and I haven't studied one bit. I haven't even touched my backpack. This worries me.
You ever have the feeling of being "recharged?"
This weekend I started to feel a sense of relief. It's as if I've finally overcome that mountain I've been trying to get over. I don't know what it is, but I'm starting to finally "get over it."
I've set myself new goals, set my priorities straight, and just gave myself some time to straighten things out. And I feel so much more... happier? No, I can't really say happy; but I feel a lot more fresh.
I don't think people know this, but I'm a very very narrow minded person. I don't find true happiness in anything, just yet. I have this theory where I can't be "happy" unless I achieve my goal.
You know, I like myself a lot more last year than now. Last year I was so much more hardworking and determined. I had my goals set and I made sure nothing got in my way. This year, I'm a lazy, complain-y, confused junior. I went against so many of my morals, I lost sight of what I was aiming for, and I became so much more vulnerable.
So this weekend, I changed a lot of my ideas and morals and I plan on keeping them.
I'm not just switching around some of plans and goals, I've decided to change as a whole.
For the sake of everything, I decided to stop blogging on so much of my crap and exposing too much of myself, I'd blog normally. (: You know, change can sometimes be a good thing.
This weekend, I've been very artsy. I sat down and painted and drew different things for the whole night. I just sat and listened to my ipod and relaxed. I never really noticed it, but I really do love art. Well when I'm in the mood. Music really helps.
Stop & Listen.
This is my favorite song at the moment. It's on repeat and it actually helps me fall asleep. I'm listening to it while reading, painting, drawing, coloring, walking, sitting, and just everything. It was also mentioned in WTTU.(:
I think music is an essential need in my life, I really can't imagine living without music. I wish we had background music. If I were to go deaf, I really would kill myself. I'm so serious. How could I go on living without being able to listen to Chariot?
That guy up there is super hot, huh? Yeah, he's my latest. He reminds me a little of that one fictional guy I'm head over heels in love with. Except the fact he's a little too skinny for the "gang leading" image. Nonetheless, he still reminds me a bit about my Kwon. (:
Thank you, Emma darling for introducing!
