insomnia.

I think I've got a slight case of Insomnia. Recently, I've been up a lot longer than usual. I used to fall right to sleep right when my head hit the pillow, or I'd think for a few minutes, maybe even a few seconds and then I'd be done for the night. But these days, I'm having trouble falling asleep :T I really don't know why, I'm up for like two hours thinking on & on about something I really don't want to think about. I really hate the feeling of being up for hours thinking of something you've been trying to avoid. My insomnia doesn't end there though, I keep waking up in the middle of my sleep for no apparent reason. I'm up at five in the morning, sweating and worrying over something I can't figure out. On top of that, I miss having my daily dreams. My dreams are always on something I want. It's either that, or my wishes coming true, or a bright and happy future. To the point where I can't tell from my dreams to the reality. Oh, boy.

I've also decided... I don't plan on marrying when I grow older. Pretty random & pretty early to be thinking about it, but I noticed, those marriages you see on tv or the "american dream" are really, really, really just an imagination. I decided that, marrying, is just not for me. I don't get how a certain two people can decide to live with one another forever, or for the rest of their lives. I understand, in the begining, it can be counted as "love," but can you imagine living with that one person for the rest of your life? I probably seem pretty damn stupid saying this, but it's the truth. Honestly, I think I'm able to stay faithful for the rest of my life, but I'm just more worried of the other. It depresses me to the maximum level, to how desperate a person can be. Already a grown man (woman), with children of his(her) own, some already grown, still choose to be attracted to another woman. Even after pledging infront of a crowd of people, even after promising to one another, even after swearing to God or the cross or whatever, one of them still manages to find that it is okay to be attracted to another woman(man).
That sickens me to the biggest extent. It grosses me out more than anything in this fucked up world. I sickens me, grosses me out, and I hate it more than anything.
In shorter words, I absolutely loathe a man(woman) who cheats on his wife(husband), and it makes it even more worse if he's(she's) got grown kids.

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Isn't she absolutely flawless? She's got the perfect skin, perfect body, perfect face, she's absolutely perfect. She's what you would call beautiful. I'd choose her face over anyone's. She absolutely GORJESS. That is what i call a perfect face & body. :T

& Big Bang never fails to amaze me :T I absolutely love their album <3
























If I were to get my hands on her, I'd kill her. I love my mom more than anyone in this whole entire world.