I have a massive, massive, massive headache right now.
And it is currently 2:38AM, whereas I have to be awake at 6:30AM to make it on time to my music class. Where I will be receiving a grade no higher than a B, due to my constant lateness and absences.
But I can't fall asleep because I am freaking the fuck out.
This community college ordeal isn't working out too well for me. In so many ways.
Half having to do with my laziness and inability to focus on my school work.
Like right now, instead of wasting my time complaining and worrying about my lack of work drive, I should attempt to memorize Hirigana or start my English essay. Why have I dropped Sociology? I'm not even a Sociology major and it really doesn't matter if I get a C or not. Do I really want to be a business major? Am I really not going to focus on my school work?
This is all starting to rush into my head. Because I've only just realized that, this is it.
There are no more second chances. If you screw up now, then you'll be making eight dollars an hour for the rest of your life.
That W you just received for dropping Sociology, will stay on your transcript for the rest of your life.
Is Business your passion? Are you willing to work in the business field for the rest of your life?
This is all freaking me out.
Is everybody else so sure of themselves? I'm only eighteen!
Isn't it the time for me to not give a fuck and party all I want? Or am I too old for it?
How am I supposed to make these life changing decisions at such a young age?
Am I not young?
