To Insanity
Headache.
How has a whole month gone by without me even realizing it? It is already mid-April and I feel sick. Sick to my stomach that I have allowed myself to completely waste away my life here in Seoul, Korea. Panic stricken at four in the morning, self-loathing at two in the afternoon, and a cup of tea with my suicidal thoughts. Maybe I'm being dramatic, maybe I'm being ridiculous- I still can't help myself.
I've been told to relax and ease my mind. That this was the time for me to finally get the vacation I've always been asking for.
I really wanted to, too.
I had hoped for so much out of Korea.
Korea had always been a sort of unremitting hope. I had always dreamt of running away to Korea and escaping the blunders of my life.
But here I am, sickened by the utter nothingness in life.
Korea had always been a sort of unremitting hope. I had always dreamt of running away to Korea and escaping the blunders of my life.
But here I am, sickened by the utter nothingness in life.
