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The Pursuit of Happiness.

"Don't ever let somebody tell you, You can't do something. You've got a dream, you've gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want something, go get it. Period."

People are always telling me to pursue my passions, my dreams, my goals. People are always encouraging me to always follow my dreams and to never lose sight of what I believe in. There's people who always tell me to live my life the way I want to live. There are others who tell me to always have the courage to step up and work for my dream, to never let anyone tell me I can't do it.
But, you know, reality sucks.
I'm a senior now, and before I even know it, I'll be entering college. This week, I've been thinking about how my life is flying by me and I'm still not mature enough to accept that some things in life are just... not possible.
Time is flying by me so fast and I'm panicking. Some people think I'm rushing into things and I don't know need to worry about my major and future just yet. But just the thought of looking at my dark, blank future is terrifying.
I used to have such ambitious dreams. They'd help me throughout the day and encourage me to pull through. Dreams that would bring me hope and make me smile with having such a bright future.
Dreams that make others laugh. Dreams that are just not made for "me."
Ambitious, impossible dreams.
Am I supposed to continue to persevere and blindly live my life believing that I've got a chance? Or am I supposed to wake up from my dreams and face reality?
What would bring more happiness? Continuing to live all my life pursuing something so unreachable? Or giving up my one dream and living a life that brings no interest in me whatsoever?
Should I stick to my one dream and wish or open up to a
different possibility?