(Tomorrow is August 18, and I am going to post the LONGEST blog in the entire universe.)
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I don't know what to do.
I don't know where to start.
I take it back, I don't want time to fast forward.
I want to hit pause and rewind back to the days when I didn't need to make such "grown-up" decisions.
How can I make such a big decision when I'm still so young?
17, it seems young, yet it's just a little too old for me.
I don't know what to do, I don't know where to start.
Time isn't even flying, it's just switching over to the future without being able to feel the rush.
Yeah, okay, I admit it.
I'm still immature, I'm still too much of a baby to make big decisions regarding my future and my life.
No, not even that, I'm still immature to the point where I can't accept reality. I'm still immature to the point where I still dream of happy endings, and dream of little fantasies of happiness. I'm so immature that I believe that somehow, I'll make it.
I don't know what the fuck to do and I don't know where the fuck to start.
I am a talentless, obsessive, stupid, lazy, unable to follow through type of person.
Sometimes I think I need to just
SHUT UP.
