I am taking my SAT's for the last and final time tomorrow. It's ironic how I'm pretty nervous but I'm not really making an effort to study just a little bit more. Actually, scratch that, I'm very very very nervous. This test determines my application to my college of choice. So, to mollify my indignant nervous feelings towards the test, I am blogging. And next week, I am taking the ACT's for the first and final time. Pretty ambivalent about the turn out of the test scores, for both actually. I always end up falling asleep during the test and filling in erroneous answers at the last minute. My already languid mind turns slower than usual and I end up bubbling in remissive answers. Bad habit, bad scores, bad mood, bad future.
Ahh, need to stop worrying!
I noticed I have been acting very churlish this week and acting pretty cantankerous towards a lot of people. Just been very tired lately, either not getting enough sleep or getting a little too much. I've really got to stop taking naps! I end up sleeping for the whole day and end up finishing up homework right before the class. Needless to say, I didn't go to fifth period when I had a test!
All the while, Emma and I have made an affidavit with each other to change our lifestyle for the better! I'm kind of excited for it, and hope to follow through. Go go go!!
I noticed I'm very implacable. If someone were to tell be to be quiet, I'd continue on talking. I'm impetuous, mercurial, loud, and my attention span is worse than Momo's. But you know what kind of person I want to be? I want to be phlegmatic and speak in laconic replies. But somehow an amalgam with a benevolent, kind person devoted to altruism. I want to be amiable and affable to everyone.
Writing my Personal Statements, yes, I'm still not done... is one of the hardest tasks I've ever had to do. I want to write an emphatic essay to the omnipotent people at my college of choice and leave some sort of mark. A lot of people told me to exaggerate and tell lies to make me look better, but you see, I want to get into the college without having to write a disingenuous essay. I want the college to honestly accept me because... because they think I will have some sort of potential.
The bold words are part of my vocabulary list. I'm not even sure if I used them correctly. I'm not even sure if it helped. This was a useless post but I thought I needed a place to ease my worry, but I think I just made it worse using crazy vocabulary words. Sigh.
How I hate vocabulary, long tests, tests in general, the SAT's, waking up early, and useless blogs. Will be back tomorrow, or soon to blog about more important topics!
Dear SAT's,
Please give me an easy essay topic! And add in a lot of easy vocabulary words and top it off with easy math questions! Be good to me, for this is my last and final test! I bid you farewell, SAT's! And hope to see a shocking improvement in my scores! Give me good scores and let us end on a positive note! Farewell!
---Interviewing myself after the test;
So Stella, how do you think you did?
Essay was crap, had to pee like 10000x, omitted like 8 questions on each section, got tired after the first half and didn't do much, got hungry, couldn't focus, got sleepy, doodled all over my packet, wrote random Korean words, wrote lyrics stuck in my head. Yep, sums up my whole SAT test.
Well, do you think you did better than before?
Maybe, I'd like to think so. But probably not, whenever I think I did alright, I do worse. Go figure.
Will you still apply to college?
Shut up.
