It's crazy just how drawn I am towards someone. And it's a surprise just how blatantly I'm admitting this, but it drives me insane. Just being so drawn towards another person.
I don't even know what it is - this overwhelming feeling of e v e r y t h i n g . My mind stops and starts, worlds fail me, A simple stuck.
It's an overflow of emotions that I'm so deeply into yet so scared of. It's a feeling I'd love to figure out solving, but afraid to do alone. And I really don't want to keep it unsolved. It's a very scary feeling.
Regardless, it strikes me just how much I've written about you. Just how much I read and labeled your "life". If I even knew, but you were written so eloquently that I couldn't let that go.
Today, though. I saw you as YOU. Or I tried. But, I couldn't help but realize you have your own problems and just how different your's and my perspectives are. It scares me that you have certain girls you're drawn towards. Like me to you. And I think of just how different those girls must be from me.
But you're a person and you have certain people you are automatically drawn towards. And I really would want you to be happy. And I'd want for you to be with them because the feeling you get from being ignored is painful. I wouldn't want that for you, even if it's you doing it to me.
Why is it like that, though? It's fucking relentless; just how unfair it is. I don't like it one bit.
"Cupid is fucking irresponsible. And I'm tired of him using me for target practice."
////how obsession plays in my life.
