And I procrastinated my summer "homework" for this month. Hehe, forgive me.
So, my best friend. Or in my lucky case, best friends.
I think I've already blogged about them enough, but eh, what the hey.
Oh wow, lyrics go perfect for this post.
Oh wow, lyrics go perfect for this post.
These two: Emma Kim and Jane Park.
I love them. Can I simply leave it at that?
Ah, okay, this might get mushy and we all know: we three, suck at it, receiving it, and hate it. But since you two have ended your blog rampage, I guess I'll give it a go.
You two... honestly, mean so much to me.
I know there are days when my short temper lashes out on you two and I become an annoying bitch, but it's honestly only because I know you two will stay with me either way. I know there are days when I get butthurt over the smallest things and become some jealous girlfriend, but it's honestly only because I don't want to be replaced.
It's funny how we're all friends actually. How our different, yet similar personalities don't seem to clash.
We haven't really gotten into many huge fights, have we? We've had our stupid up's and down's, but all in all, knowing we'd make up and get everything back to normal. We also haven't really very open to each other, like we don't ever seem to tell each other our gut feelings. But it's funny, we're still so close. Best friends, I can say. I know we don't open up a lot. We're all a bit of introverts, can you agree? Haha, my two best friends: One introverted freak and cold hearted emotionless. You two are both my onions. I've always got to peel you guys open, although mostly forcefully by me. :)
I want to thank you guys. And I know I won't ever thank you guys in person, nor do I think you two will accept it in person due to embarrassing emotional feelings, haha.
But, from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank you two for always being there for me.
Emma, you've always been there for me. It's funny how we've cliqued from our different yet very similar personalities. Meeting you in freshmen year, as cliche as it sounds, has completely changed my life. How we've always had similar dreams to be something a little more than normal, Seokyo. How we'd complain about being trapped and suffocating from everything surrounding us. You always listen to me complain and whine about the stupidest and smallest things, yet you listen. I always get angry with you over the smallest things, yet you forgive me. We always seem to be going through a certain turmoil together. And I just hope you know that I will always, always, be there for you. I know how introverted you can be, and there are times I get butthurt over how little you tell me, but it's okay. I won't push you anymore(yeah right). But I just want you to know how thankful I am for a friend like you. I love how our personalities balance so well and I hope it always will. You've always been there for me and I hope even though it'll get annoying, you always will. And I just have to add, thanks for always cooking for me. You and Jane mean so much to me that it's kind of disgusting. Haha, and I know I get jealous girlfriend on you a lot, but you know why, bra. Thank you so much for looking after me like my momma and listening to my useless shit.
Jane, you crazy girl, you have been there for me on one of my toughest times. I can still remember spring break so vividly, sleeping over your house and watching the sunrise at CV. I don't think you and Emma know how much that night meant to me. You've helped me through on probably one of the hardest times of my life by simply listening to me and accepting me with open arms. Every time I think of junior year, I hate myself on how gay I was and didn't see that you were in fact a true friend. Haha, this is weird talking like this to you but it's not like you'll read it. But I'm so thankful that through it all, you still accepted me and thought of me as a friend. I don't think you even know how thankful I am for that. Our random talks at Vons, eating like five bags of large fries, eating Mcdonald's ice cream and fries, Gringo's El Cheapo Tacos. We would always be eating. But haha, our personalities clash a lot, too. We're both hotheads. But in the end, our friendship is pretty wild. Sometimes I wonder if it's only me doing the laughing, but I think our relationship is very funny. Our crazy, top of the head, conversations and our random outbursts of... pretty much, nothing. You and me together, we're pretty unstoppable. Dynamic Duo and Supreme Team!! Thank you so much for being there for me when I needed a friend the most.
I don't want to lose you two as we all go on to college and go on and do our own things. It honestly worries me almost everyday when I think of being separated from you two next year. And I just hope you two will always keep in touch and keep me in your lives. You two mean so much to me that I can't even express it properly. I hope college won't pull us apart but pull us closer together. I don't know about you two, but I most definitely want you two in my life, FOR LIFE. I want you two in my life when I'm in some turmoil that probably doesn't mean much, I want you two in my life when I'm at my happiest. I want you two to buy me ice cream (haha) when I'm sad. I want you two to meet my future husband at a nice steak dinner; Emma don't embarrass me by ignoring me and Jane close your damn cat eyes. (>:o!!) I want you to tell me if he's not the one or whatnot. I want you two at my wedding as my maid of honors. I don't care if you can't have two, you two are my maid of honors! You get it? I want you two through it all.
You guys aren't even just best friends, you guys mean so much more than that. You two are like my sisters. My support system and family. And it's funny because I see you two more of a family to me than my own. You two are like my other halves. If that makes sense. Okay, Emma, you're like one fourth me and Jane, you're also like one fourth me. (Because I think I need to be at least half of me o_o)
And although sometimes, I think, I think of you two more than you two think of me.
I don't really care.
Because you two are my best friends. What more is there to say?
You don't know how proud and prideful I am that I was blessed with two amazing best friends.
And I know I always make up crazy scenarios where you two will ruin my life, but I only do it because it's funny and I know for a fact you two would never.
Mushy enough for you?
I think this is enough gut feelings for the next century. So I'll write about you two in 2020.
Through thick and thin, bro's.
