I feel like I'm losing myself.
The days have been great. Free and fun loving. I've been on top of things and finding happiness in the smallest of things. I find myself in small meltdowns, but get over it in a few minutes. I smile at the sky and breathe with ease.
But I feel like I've lost myself. I feel detached from my emotions and I feel as if I've lost a part of myself and I'm not so sure why I'm feeling this emptiness. At times when I'm alone, I have this empty feeling and I can see myself standing far away when I'm right there.
I don't think it's been with me too long. It's already assimilated into me and it wasn't just a point in my life, but it's a part of me. It's part of my identity and part of who I am. It's me. It's my strength, but a waste of energy. And no matter what, it'll always define me. It will slowly kill me, but it doesn't matter, because it's me. It'll end up killing me, but save me.
I have nothing more to say and I'm tired. Tomorrow is a new day and another happy one.
