Update

I have this unexplainable fear of endings. Whether it be goodbye's, departures, or a simple ending to a book. I also don't really enjoy watching movies. Wait no, scratch that, I love watching movies; but what I mean to say is, I have this uncanny love for movie trailers. I always seem to enjoy movie trailers a lot more than I do the actual movies, and it quite almost breaks my heart whenever I finish watching the movie. Whereas if I had watched the movie trailer and kept it at that, the ending is open for my alternate ending.
I'm just having a horrible time letting go of this book and movie; Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro. It took me quite a while to finish the novel and let alone get myself to watch the movie. I felt that if I had watched the movie then it would be mean I was forever and done with the story line. I wouldn't be able anticipate anymore because there would be nothing more to look forward to. All the while, I cried like a baby in both the novel and the movie and the ending both killed me and enlightened me. Yup, no sappy, unrealistic happy endings here.

Anyway, I've nocturnally an insomniac and I've got this idea... Hm...

Also, I'm looking for a few changes in my life. I just don't really know where to start...

Whatever, let's see where this idea takes me and how long it takes me start these changes...